Path Of My Education

Salam there. I always thought that being a person and alive, I can do almost everything that I want. Little that I know that, with only ONE decision every turn of my life would changed. Every single thing of my life....would changed.

When I was in Form 4, I've learned about poem 'The Road Not Taken' by Robert Frost and I really like the poem because it is talking about life, about journey that we will passed on.

The persona in this poem is a very conflicted guy. He doesn't tell us too much about himself, but we know that he is facing a big decision; the road he's walking on, and the life he's leading, is splitting into two separate roads up ahead.

The decision he's up against could be something like changing careers or moving to a different place. He could just be having the typical mid-life crisis, unsure if he likes where his life is going, even though he always thought he would. Whatever the decision is, it must be major, because he knows that he'll still be talking about it far in the future, saying that it made a big difference in his life.

Just like the poem, I think that we have to make our choices in every single thing. As example, after PMR we can choose which path we want to take, science or art stream. I know I can't do well in science stream but, I was afraid. Yes..I was afraid. I was afraid about what people would say when I'm not in my group. Sad to say but I don't really mingle well with other people. I've been in the same class since Form 1 till Form 5 and not even once I regretted it. I do actually wonder sometimes what will happen if I changed my stream that time, would I get better result in SPM..maybe?

 After matriculation, when I filled out UPU form my first choice was TeSL in UM. Even though I don't want to be a teacher, I fill it out anyway since my mom really want me to be a teacher. I went there, been there as TeSL student and realized that I couldn't do this. I'm not even interested in whatever I learned in class. I went to class and I don't even know what did I learned. Then after mid-semester holiday in my 1st semester I've decided to quit.

And now, here I am, alone... at home. Like I said before, it's not like I regretted anything about it. I made a choice and whatever consequences coming from that choice, I should accept it wholeheartedly. It just that I feel alone here. All of my friend are pursuing their study and I think none of them run away like I did.

I really hate it when my mom's customers came and they asked "Cuti ke?" and I just said "da berenti dah" and they like "owh..." Che.. so annoying. Their expression like...I don't even know how to describe it. It's really annoys me.

But, I did learned a lot of thing when I lived at home. I learned how to cook, to sew and a lot more. Seen like I am currently undergoing training to become full-time housewife. >0<
I will work hard to be the perfect one. :P 

Support me with your doa's friends, as I've always been doing for you. Till next time darling....
Salam.

21/4/2013
Sunday 9:34 am

Bored....

Salam and good day to all....

Lately, che ya sngt buzy dgn sgala bnda yg berlaku dlm dunia ni..>0< 
mmg x de masa nak update pe2 pun kn blog nie...

last week kn cuti mid sem utk bdak degree, ada la kwn che ya yg sorg ni...dia sngt la boring sbb baby lappy dia msuk hspital, so x de bnda nak layan.. 

jd spnjang kemasukan lappy dia ke ward tuh...we talked about lot, lot of thingy..(cuba bygkn suara ala2 mcm fbi masa dia umum hadiah abpbh ari tuh utk ayat strusnya ini) dan topik paling utama ialah................. KAHWIN!!!

ye la maklum je la kn..ktorg ni da msuk twenties da....bg manusia2 yg x prnah nak ad bf ni rasa cam ish..bley ke ak kawin ni...hm....

but kalu tnya parents sure la parents suruh "belajar dulu, jodoh ni Allah da tntu kan dah dkt Loh Mahfuz lg, percaya je kt tkdir...bila masa kawin nnti, kawin lah..."

tp kn sbgai sorg anak yg mmg tahu cmner nak mmbela hujah diri sndri tu kluar jgk la ayat ni "tp kn usaha tu pun sebahagian dripada pergantungan hidup kita kpd Allh jgak...kn?"

ye la tuh....mka sesungguhnya che ya ni da masuk golongan 5G(gatal, galak,geli, gelenya, gelebeknyeng)..hehe, don't ask me apa mksudnya ea...only in terengganu..>0<

mmg tringin jgak la nak ada nama kt tgh2 tuh kn...

jadi sebenarnya....che ya tau, che ya da melalut mcm2 kt sini...tp kn.....ikut suka ati che ya la, kn ni belog che ya....korg baca sapa suruh?? heheehe gurau je, baca2 jgn x baca...sian che ya x de kwn skrang...:(

in the nutshell nya, kpd sape2 yg rncang nak kawin 2, smoga segala urusan korg dipermudahkan... kpd yg baru nak propose tu, smoga x de halangan.... AMIN....

HAPPY READING!!!!